getting a bit depressed.

Hi there.
It's been days since I've last posted in here.
and being back doesn't necessarily mean I'm into a good mood or anything synonymous with that.
Well, I'm not in a bad mood either. Maybe, in betweens.
Anyway, I've recently been preoccupied with the fact that I'm feeling miserably hopeless, pretty useless, and incompetent. Here I go again. self pitying myself.
Well, I just can't help it. We just can't help it.We, the leftover guys, can't help it. (well, maybe not all of them...)
I'm not blaming anyone of this and I mean it. I just freakingly hate myself for being so incapable of things that I ended up with this totally unwanted scenario.
Seeing the looks from my batch mates from the other sections, and even from the younger years, I can't help but feel utterly embarrassed and frustrated. It's been obvious that they're looking, and some even staring, just because of that event/tradition or whatever our school calls it. Just because some of us, the so called EINSTEIN students, were left and ugghh..enough!
sorry. I just wanted to share my feelings in here so badly. You know how we just can't keep feelings like these bottled up inside us....especially for me. I might broke myself down.

anyhow, to ease myself a bit, I've thought of sticking a photo of Ryo-tan in here. :)

cool as always. ^^

dang.tests.tests.and more tests.

Having four exams tomorrow (not including the college entrance exam for EAC) is way too easy!!

Heh!who am I kidding?! of course it isn't.

English, Physics, Calculus and Environmental Science..the power four! XD 

It's probably the doom's day tomorrow and add on it our weekly CAT day..total havoc! :))

Yet, here I am, seriously focused on the computer..haha..foolish it is..

Spending too much time on Calculus is pretty useless, I've reviewed English already since it was supposed to be administered today and as for Envi..I guess I was just being lazy..Oh and Physics; maybe I'll study it later.. XD

but, at this point of time...I have no intention to study at all..

...

Kidding!

I can't do that. It's like fighting for a war without armors and weapons.

So, as usual, here I am multi tasking my studies and my addiction.. :))

hope I'll pass tomorrows exams..

wish me luck guys!

- karin - :P

hey!

hey 'tis me again...
I happen to have a little free time and writing a post was what I thought about...
you see, my day ended pretty well I guess...I woke up a bit late, ate pandesal for breakfast and do the usual chores I do...after which I studied Economics cause we're having a test tomorrow...I also did numerous homeworks and the lectures...which I find tiresome as always...In betweens, I had to constantly look after my little sister, Gian..both parents are off to Divisoria after all..

I wonder why babies are prone to crying a lot?? oh well....whatever..

And now I'm busy printing images to be used for our birthday present to one of my important friends, Madeline..I hope she'll get to like it... :)
Apparently, after all that I've done for this day, the idea still keeps on bugging me like hell.. and it sucks..really..

and the classes will be resumed tomorrow....what's the connection?? Well, I just don't feel like going to school tomorrow. I don't know why either..

anyhow, good night humans...

I'm being unreasonable..

"Calculus is...SUICIDE..." 

yup, that's right..can you believe it?
 Even the letters 'c' & 'u' is being used in computations...

              EH?! Nande?!

I was okay with the letters 'x' & 'y' but now, it seems like every single letter was intended for computations...ughh..how cruel can math be?? T.T
I'm sorry, I just freakingly hate math.. :[




Anyhow, I've been yet pre-occupied with what I was talking about on my last post...and actually, the very idea has just sunk in to me..
yeah..and I was like...whaaaaaaat?!?! Darn..this is not a dream..
Oh how I hate it when every time my mind was flying off somewhere, his figure (or maybe his image or anything related to him) appears...dang..
I just can't focus in class..this is getting really annoying now...
why the heck do I keep on thinkin' about him?! 
am having some kinda disease?! 


HELP ME!!!!! T.T


my advice: never fall in love with anyone of your guy friends....never...it's never a good thing..

wae?!

I've just confirmed one shocking, ah no, unbearable news....
wait, was unbearable really necessary? well, maybe..


 The guy I liked, or maybe I still like, will be migrating to Canada..what?! 
well, he's mom was based there and now that she became a citizen already, she has apparently decided to get her family to live with her..there..in Canada...

Noooooo......I mean, I don't know...
I've liked him, yes...and was quite sure that the idea has been in its past tense already, but, it seems like it has yet to become one...I tried erasing him (not completely, though) in my mind since I know that it'll just be a pain in the ass..sorry for the term...but, I just can't seem to do that..especially hearing the news from him directly...I even unconsciously felt hopeless about it.. and like I said, I don't know why either...






alright, enough of this....
sorry if I've been dumping my idiotic feelings in here...


anyway, have a good night lads... 

T.T

I'm feeling really really down (I mean it) I didn't knew that F.T. island's showcase concert in Manila is over already..and they even sang in Showtime..I wasn't able to watch it too..this sucks...will they come back here again?? Ughh......

I want to see Lee Hongki so badly... T.T

I can't think right..I don't know..I don't even know why I felt so bad when I'm not really that familiar with Lee Hongki not until this Sunday only..I feel so flushed and empty... T.T
I hate it!